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Almost Summer, looking back and feeling nostalgic. Need to escape. 

Bergen, Norway

Credit: vikingsgonnapillage

I didn’t binge today. it was hard of course. I even put back one food from the shopping basket when I was at the store. I feel lost when I’m buying food. I’m either buying junk or just water and apples. 

at least will wake up more or less feeling physically ok at 5 am when I have to go back. no burps and bloating tomorrow. 

whenthebodyspeaks:

Step out of your cage
And onto the stage
It’s time to start
Playing your part
Freedom awaits
Open the gates
Open your mind
Freedom’s a state

haven’t binged yet. I just told myself that I don’t want to eat at all. not far from truth, as it’s very hot. but when parents went outside I thought of binging and purging just to get rid of some triggering foods. didn’t do that though. but now I don’t know what to do. I’m tired. I’m really tired. annoyed. every day I have to deal with this crap. 

it’ll be ok only when I say that I don’t want to cause pain to myself and feel bad, as well as run away from pure feelings of what’s happening at present instead of just I don’t want to get fat

as the main reason why I don’t want to binge. 

had to wake up today. now there’s that chocolate on my desk left from yesterday. untouched. if I eat it, I’ll binge.

overate. one chocolate left, somehow couldn’t eat it. don’t want to face tomorrow because of that. 

I have to think of some quote to add in my yearbook. no idea. I only can bully myself obviously.